Sunday, August 14, 2005
School tomorrow.how fun!Highly annoying that i cannot blog on MY BLOG! haha.okay this is my blog too..SUPER IRRITATING!You have no right to hack my password OKAY? know your limits can?U live your life i live mine, can? I don't bother you, you don't bother me. I blog what i like,and you have no right to interfere!Its my life okay? If you are so free, go do things that are more worthwhile? And stay out of things that you shouldn't stick your nose into.Well, if you so happen to have found this one too, let me tell you something.STAY AWAY! you are NOT welcome here.NOT AT ALL!I am getting pretty sick and tired of your ways. I do not know why you are doing all these. But you are getting to much okay? Anyway..i shouldn't waste any of my time typing this and getting irritated over you two. I have much better things to do and other things to make me happy...just to end off. You both should go get your own life too. Go do things that are profitable. And stop you nonsense.I mean it. Don't go too far. I hope you will have happy lives too.
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9:27 PM
Saturday, August 13, 2005
Okay.so what exactly is the point of having another blog?nevermind..forget it.I am just tired.and i don't really want to bother about it.This is suppose to be a place for me to just be able to pour out my feelings.But obviously i can't do that.Please just go away Okay?I don't want anything to do with you all.Why can't you leave me alone?Can't i live my own life?Is it so tough to leave me alone?
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10:02 PM
Sunday, August 07, 2005
So troubled..hurt..tired..all messed up again..i don't know what to say anymore..i want to let go..I should let go..i must let go...u never existed..why must everything happen at the same time always..too much for me to handle.I just so badly didn't want it to be you..i just don't understand what all these is about?I was so hoping so praying it wasn't u.but i guess we were once again right. Why go to such an extent?Why do it..n then give such a stupid excuse to why u did it?can u go kill someone and say..i was feeling crazy that night?Somethings cannot be solve just by u telling the person..i was feeling crazy.U just can't do that. U have to stop doing it.Do you have any idea how far u are going on this?How many people u are hurting?I give up..i have been sitting here.thinking of how to type it all out.But no, i can't think of how to put it in words.I give up.for everything..there is an excuse isnt there? Nevermind..its over.Lets leave it there.Haha..HELLO jeremias..what so juicy about it?haha..funny guy!anyway.met melly to have pasta the other day.and finally got to eat what i wanted to eat!so yay!haha..n dominic n the rest were there..haha..funny pple.went out again with melly and jerey..and then dominic n nic joined us.yep..FUNFUN!!lalalal..Okay...half day sch today..didnt stay through..i just had to had to get out of school.lalalai haven't slept in 24hrs.or eaten in 24hrs.but i m not hungry or tired.which is weird..
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3:48 PM
Everything is so confusing.I am in a mess?I can't seem to figure it out.It wasn't suppose to be like that.Maybe because i know this isn't the way it should be. Everytime i am just about to get it right again..U appear.I see you.I get all lost again. I read what you wrote, and it meant so much.There was so much to it..though it wasn't very long. But maybe its time to let it all go..Okay..ignore what was above.just some thoughts..I wonder..how can someone just go judge someone else on her tagboard and complain about what the person is blogging about on HER OWN blog.If you are not happy with it..don't read it. I wish whoever the two of you are will just leave her alone? Its really none of your business to go and judge her base on what u think.Cause what you think might not be right.And to make yourself sound so good and go and scold another person..whats that about?And the thought which i hate is..it might just be who i think it is that is writing all these tags. I don't want it to be the both of you. I truly hope it isn't.this whole situation is sad. But i have put it aside..and i want to leave it as that. We have tried to settle it before mths back.but it didn't work out.You just started it out again. It has been going on for so long.and to be honest,I am a much much happier person now that i have left it aside.What will be your purpose of opening it up again. Not everything can be forgotten just by saying..Lets forget it..start all over again. Sometimes the hurt has to be dwelt with first.But i can say that for us, we have forgiven..but it just can't go back to that again. Just like when a glass breaks..if when you glue it back..it will never be that original condition as when you first bought it. This whole thing use to matter to me so much, to them too. But now, its just something of the past. It is something i have chosen to leave behind.Also..for their issue,leave it to them to settle.Its between them. Not the rest of us.Let them resolve it on their own.And don't comment on smth that doesn't involve you. What is your point in doing that? And do not pull someone else into the whole thing.You claim he has a part in it.You claim he started it.You claim he is one of the main factors.But if you really think through it again, is he really a main factor? You say we are building a big wall..and making it impossible for you all to climb over.But who was the wall really built by? We have been trying to tear it down, but you built it higher.Now you are just climbing over smth that was place there by you.The obstacle was put there by you all. You are always trying to push the blame on someone else. In many situations, we all have seen how much value this whole friendship has. You all say you are tired.We are too. Thats why we are just leaving it. Because we have tried.we tried so hard. We even tried to pretend that nothing was going on.And just hoping it will stop on its own.but it never did. I have moved on already. Dwelt with all the hurt that i use to feel. I have learnt to let go.
Mellymelly!take care girl!!:) *hugs*
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1:05 AM
