Saturday, July 30, 2005
OKay.time for some UPDATES!haha..what an eventful week.lets start with last weekend?haha.Went for PHS funfair with melly. funfun..did a henna..and i am so thankful its almost good.it looks lyke a disease for some reason.haha..lyke rashes as phil says. Was there for almost the whole afternoon.yep..saw some bands..which we goood!haha..like where's jamie and tainted friday.The vocals were good..and tainted friday's accoustic was GREAT!!!!lalala..then melly's friends came.haha..they went crazy.haha.
Monday-sch is abit crazy..hmm..Corban came back from HK.he flew there just to watch the ManU vs Hk match.haha..SO RICH!haha.had guitar.to make up for those lessons we lost when we were training. Had a quick one..and then ms.Joli let me off to go PS with melly!haha..thanks gurl for coming with me!help me to choose present:D walk the whole place and finally landed up at e first stall we walked into.haha..We went crazy at this store selling earrings which we really cheap!haha..nicenice! AFter tt went to city hall to have dinner........and then went to watch sharleen's concert at the Esplanade.yep...it was niceeeeee! I had fun!haha.And i met yanyi!haha..after lyke almost 4yrs?yep..tt was AWESOME!
Tues-HAd guitar again..COuld have started earlier,but Ms.joli was talking to the guys cause they go and changed the toilet signs.Haha..learned more chords!haha.yay!!then ms Joli let me off early again..cause melly and jerey were waiting for me..went to watch Fantastic Four with them..COrban was supposed to go but then he had wanted to go home and sleep.Yep..it was nicee...jerey got the movie time wrong.so it was later than expected.then had to rushrushrush home after that.
Wed-Melly..jerey and i ran away from the pool.haha..Okay.i didnt really run..cause i don't have to stay..but i guess it was considered running.cause i was suppose to be there.Oh..bah!its complicating.haha.then Mrs.L called melly's hp..she didnt answer..then her dad called and wanted her to go back to e pool n say tt we were leaving and then leave again..lyke she will let us go once we go back.Anyhows...went to the Macs near melly's house..Sat there and ate and talk..then walked down to see jerey's grandmother's house..then walked back to melly's house..and what goood timing..melly's dad was coming round the corner.so we all dashed to get out of sight.haha..then jerey and i turned into e road..then he took my guitar.cause i couldnt run with it.haha..then i decided to follow melly.so i left him there.haha..then later her dad turned into the road..saw jerey and asked him what he was doing there.haha.yep..then after tt had to go home..thinking we were all in trouble..haha..except jerey lAH. nvm..mrs.L called me at night..and talk for quite awhile..arh!so nonsenseeeeeeeeee!then after tt i called melly..talked with her and jerey.Baaaaaah..haha..didnt get any of my hw done..cause i was too pissed off.
THurs-got to sch..jerey and i were walking up..first one we saw was her.
SHe gave a very erm....emotional devotion?yep..then she dismissed us for breakfast.then we thought dun need to stay.but then she called the three of us back.SSHe let jerey off pretty easily with a few words.Then she talked to me and melly.but then i supposed she realize tt she wouldnt get anywhere that way.So she sent me out.and talked for almost an hour with melly..making her go with out breakfast!BOO!Okay..all the events tt took place after this isnt meant to be publish.haha.maybe another day when i know how to put it into words i will.
lalala......ANyway!loves u melly!and ms Joli!!u guys are the best!the best!:D
OKay....going townnnnn with melly now.....
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3:59 PM
Tuesday, July 19, 2005
And i don't know what is true anymore..I don't know what to believe anymore.It all seems so fake.I mean..u keep explaining..but then it all starts again..so whats the point.It seems like it will all end back up where it was. I mean..what is your real point in doing all thesE? Bringing everything up?and do what?just cause she is gone and u need some stand in..so we are the ones.now its us? It doesn't work anymore.I m not oblivious to whats happening around me u know.I m not tt blur. arh..whatever..i m tired..we all are..its like war.BAh!
Arh..i m sick again.man...air con was so cold,the windows were frosting up.i was having slight fever in sch.But thank God i lasted thru the day.TEsts tmr!!!how exciting..tired tired..soso tired.
oh yah!HELLO JEREMIAAAAAAAAS!haha..Hello Matt!:D
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10:06 PM
Saturday, July 16, 2005
And i am still praying each day everything will get better. Sometimes i know it will be quite impossible.and everything will never get there. Never be what it was. It scares me.You scare me.It was never this way. Everything has just gone down hill tt i am shocked. So shocked. You ruined my special day.But tts okay.Its all over..i shall let it go.
And lately..it all just doesnt matter so much to me anymore. Talking to MJ made me feel so light.and the joy tt i lost for a long long time is slowly coming back.bit by bit.and i am thankful.thankful that despite all these things happening..i m not as hurt as before.maybe i m immuned to it.Maybe we are all coming from different points here.but the way its going..maybe we need to talk it over.But at this point,its hard,its difficult.I don't know what to say anymore.All i can do is keep praying.
dear girl! dont be sad!its not you okay!its not what u do.Its not you! Dont let it affect u any more okay. Smile! Dont let this whole thing affect u and ur enthu attitude.your joy!let it stay with you! ALWAYS! And we will make him come back too okay!haha..
love you loads!!! I say a lil prayer for you:)
On a happier note.....haha..i m coming back to being hyper and crazy..haha...air cons in sch too!yay!haha..so niceeeeee!haha.i can concentrate better now tt the classrooms arent so stuffy n hot! lalala.
starting my swimming next mth..no more running for me for awhile..though i did run today..but now my leg is abit crazy.Oh well.....lalala.it was worth it!Everyone did AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!haha..lalalala
hmmmmmm.guitar is good..not taking badminton for now.Too many.I wanna concentrate on the ones i am doing.=)
well.off to do my journal.Journal has been doing me good.Helping me thru each day also.lalala
ohohohohoh......i know u will read this soooooooo: THANK YOU Aaron for the chocolates!haha.i didn't give them away okay!!!!i was just joking=) and THANK you shar and jema for the the the..rock?no..stones!haha..thank you!=)
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10:07 PM
